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Friday, May 26, 2006Boon go back malaysia le.. left me alone in Singapore.. I realised i dun have much friends.. Keep hanging out with the same usual khakis.. i think i have lesser male friends ard me.. i dunno y.. maybe i no more 'nan ren yuan' le..
I think im having depression.. i think im going berserk.. I dunno hw to describe, it just that every night when im alone or before sleeping.. i tend to cry.. everynight. Keep thinking, but dunno what. I just want to get away from all these.. keep going out, hanging with friends, joke around, play ard, so that i wont think of anything! But right now, im all alone, things just cross my mind.
I used to be so quiet, even in MRT or buses, but now im so talkative and talk a lot of rubbish and keep thinking of things to talk to keep myself away from the troubles.
Who am i now?!
cindy ng
8:40 AM
Saturday, May 13, 2006yeah.. it's Mother's Day today and my mum is not at home.. She left us.. leaving the four of us behind. She went and stay with my granny.. this home, this family is gone.. I always put a strong front but inside me.. im sad.. cry in the nitez.
When i come back everynight, nobody is at home, nobody cooks for me, nobody to talk to.. That's y i dun like to stay at home.. keep going out and come back very late.. the bonding we used to have, the happiness we used to share.. are all now USED TO..
My Gu Gu called me in the morning, she say as a da jie, i should ask my mum to come back. and she ask me to make a card..BUT.... does my dad wan her to come back? im doing the card right now.. but i dunno wat to write in the card.. tml my sis is going to my granny house..
had not been sleeping well lately.. haven find a full time job yet.. still slacking ard.. Dunno wan to find wat kind of job.. F&B? teaching? or sales.. i need a good pay... I think i wont be going to australia to study le.. maybe after a couple of years..
gers.. next week i will be working thurs fri and sat.. so.. ask me out, mahjiong session, swimming, gym.. shopping.. and my favourite.. makan..
to huifen:
Stay strong ger and we always be there for you.. jiayou and take care!
cindy ng
11:57 PM
